Yes, I Am Angry

So simply, yesterday night I went out with some people. The plan was to watch a theatre which will be played by my senior. But because of one thing (Or more...) we came there late and we I didn't have the courage to enter, so they decided to go somewhere else and get a dinner. Plus they haven't had the ticket yet, it added one reason for them not to enter. But in front of the gate I met my friend and she told me that she has 10 tickets. But oh well, I decided to go eat dinner with them who went out with me instead. Although I really, I mean really-really like seriously, madly, deeply want to watch the show.

I didn't know that my mood would turn out that bad. I even lost my appetite, I hated it to be there and all I wanted to do is... I didn't even know.

Have I told you that the main reason I went there is to look for my dear someone who is in a disappearing act? And for not stepping in yesterday means like I was giving up before I tried to fight, I stepped back before I even tried to look for him.

And that is one of the main reason of my anger, if you ever want to know.

So today, my mood haven't fixed... I am still angry, and disappointed.

I am angry because I didn't watch last night's show.
I am angry because I went out just to go EAT (just so you know, I have a LOT of food in my house already.)
I am angry because I got the chance and I missed it.
I am angry because my friend met my dear one that I've been looking for this whole month.
I am angry because I miss him dearly.
I am angry because he's disappear.
I am angry because I can't see him.
I am angry because I went out last night for something useless, pointless.
I am angry because I can't get angry at them.
I am angry because I couldn't tell them how angry I was last night.
I am angry because I have a lot of things to do and I wasted my precious time just to go out last night.
I am angry because now I have a lot of homework.
I am angry because when I am angry I'll be so negative.
I am angry because I have my linguistic homework to do tonight.
I am angry because he cancelled to join the linguistic class which I'll have tomorrow.
I am angry because I cannot see him.
I am angry because I miss him.
I am angry because I cannot see him.
I am angry because I can't vent out my anger.
I am angry because I want to see him again.
I am angry because I wasted my time yesterday.
I am angry because I didn't get the chance to even look for him.
I am angry because yesterday was pointless.
I am angry because I am angry.
I am angry because I kept repeating the reason why am I angry.

I miss him
and I am angry.

PS:
For them who had made me angry,
So now you all know that I am angry and disappointed, right?
Stop saying sorry because it's useless, unless you can ask them to play the theatrical show once again and bring him there too.

I know that I sounded so selfish and I'm sorry to say that I don't even want to care about it right now.
Think whatever you want.
Blame me for being this selfish.
Hate me for being this childish.
It's not like I'm gonna give a damn about you anymore.

You were all playing with the wrong heart of a wrong little girl at a wrong time.

For the one I miss so much,
So now you know that I miss you,
I've never been this frank, seriously.
If this post scares you, I'm so sorry, I just want to write my feelings down.

I don't have the want to owe you, I just want to meet you again,
really, I miss you.
That's all.

And so readers, now you know another side of the positive and optimistic stromatowerry princess tiara.

And I don't want you to get angry at him for turning me so selfish like this, I know that I kept whining and whining and whining about him but, it's just me, not him.

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